To Thine Self Be True & Love Is All There Is!

In the one photo with Sukhi, she is learning to fly on my feet, she did very good for about 1 or 2 minutes, Brave and Spirited Soul! She loves to nuzzle in my hair and she loves the laundry basket! My baby at 7-7.5 months old!

Hello there lovely Ones!
How are you? I hope life is just TERRRRIFIC for you! My year has been pretty darn fine, though with it’s share of ups and downs as well. The first few weeks I was high as a kite and thrilled about the new year, full of giggles and on Progesterone to heal my fibroids. Well it is known as the happy drug, but when mixed with certain estrogens it can make you a little on and off emotionally, I went through that and then had to go off Progesterone for a month to adjust to no estrogen in my diet-lotions, shampoos, conditioners, laundry detergent. Wow, it is powerful what hormones can do to you and what it make you feel-the ups are so great and the downs, well they are crazy. But I’m back to normal now!!!

After cutting my finger and getting stitches I saw how the Universe still provided for me and how incredible things work in this energy filled world. I love manifesting love, abundance and positive things around me. Just believing it is there, that it can be and is there and then listen/wait for it to just come.
I saw this AMAZING dance performance by this Dance Company by Diavolo, based in Los Angeles and wow wow WOW! I’ve never watched a dance performance where all you get sucked in by is the dance and movement. Typically the costumes are such a distraction and this company isn’t about the costumes, they dress simply, doing acrobatic, gymnastic type moves, while balancing on huge contraptions that move and roll. I heard about this company last year and thought to audition for them but had never seen them, but now, NOW I’ll be trying out for them in May or June! If I get in it is a 2 year commitment and traveling internationally doing what I most love-DANCE!!! So then my career title will be Dancer, which is what I feel I am at the heart of heart of things!

On top of all this I have started back dating again-nothing committed but I have met a wonderful man that is so beautiful and into so many of the things I’m into. We dance, play and laugh so similarly at and in life. When we dance, where we met, it’s like I am dancing with myself. I’ve never felt that ever in my life with a man. We have a lot of fun when we are together and we’ll see what happens. He lives in Northern California and there are a few things to work out but the great thing is I’m back dating again, my heart it opening and life is very full right now!

Through meeting this man I found out about EMDR….this is the most amazing thing I’ve heard of yet for Post Traumatic Stress. Through my years of looking for a natural healing method for this I’ve found nothing that works. All doctors want to put you on medication but this is a therapeutic method, that they haven’t figured out why it works but it does with people that have PTSD. I started it 2 days after I heard about it and my life has changed. I feel so differently, I feel so strong and good about me, my relationships with myself and others. There is a confidence and sureness that has come over me. I mean it’s not always there, being human we have our moments. But I am looking at life to take care of me first and then others. And that is not always easy being a massage therapist, etc. But it is working, it is risking telling the truth at a cost, but so far it’s all working out. I’ve only had 2 sessions but man oh man, EMDR-google it, find out about it if you know of anyone that has had trauma in their lives. It gets them back to who they are. They use it for war veterans. So far I know of 2 people it’s healed and heard of 9 others.

Sukhi is growing like crazy, she is jumping straight up in the air to 3 or so feet to play with her toys, she is incredible. She stood with all four feet on my shoulders this morning trying to see as much as she could all around her, so very cute. I found her the other day balancing on the toilet seat as I ran out to get something and came back, Oh that was so funny-she’s learned not to fall or jump in it!!!

I am celebrating this week as Sunday I get a new roommate. I went to bed last Thursday asking the Universe to bring me the perfect roommate by Saturday and sure enough my girlfriend called me the next morning at 7:15am wanting to room with me. This woman feels like a baby sister to me and the bond is so lovely. We dance together and have so much to share and grow from the other, so there is much love and excitement for the change and bond!

So that is me for now, I’m sure there is more but for the most part this year is about dance and healing and so far it feels like it’s going in that direction. Step by step, breath by breath keep doing what you love and all will come to you that you love-even the challenges bring us special gifts. I know I’ve learned so much in cutting my finger, dating someone so far away, healing PTSD and fibroids, it’s not always easy but it’s better then doing nothing, watching life go by and not participating, not loving. We are here to love, be love, give and receive love.
This morning I woke up with these words in my mind and in my heart- To Thine Self Be True and Love Is All There Is. But it’s true, and what doesn’t kill us does make us stronger. Though I do believe we can heal though love and pain not only pain.
Have a glorious day! To Thine Self Be True, Bliss and Love, Heather

Happy Medicine, Hoppin', Sukhi, Meditation!

Hello, hello, hello,
Happy New Year!!!! Actually the start of 2 New Years, Western and Chinese! I feel them just as powerfully! The year of 2009 = 11, which is a powerful number and I find will be a powerfully creative time for all people. Then the year of the Ox, it's an abundant year where people will fall in love and find life partners. All which sounds great to me.

This past year has been good to me from being in New Zealand, backing by myself in Australia, to being filmed in a Tantric Video, to being written up in Playgirl on Tantra on the Beach (at a nudist resort), creating and teaching a dance I absolutely love and opening to more love and passion in my life!

This year so far has started out with a BANG! First, in my search for finding a way of healing Fibroids in women, I found a doctor that has had an 85% rate of healing these things out of the body! All naturally and without any cutting! First of all you need to go on something that is naturally known as happy medicine for women! Oh man, this was really AMAZING the first 1 or 2 weeks, giggles all the time, dancing down the beach, not caring what anyone things and man oh man the bliss, and the sleep you don't need when you are so happy! If anyone is interested in more info on this, let me know, I can give info on this.

I've been dancing with this guy for the past 4 or 5 months now that is a professional dancer, we have just had so much fun! Well this has opened me to see where I want to go in my dance. And in this I started taking Private Tango lessons from him, which at first was intense, very sexy and I think I may have even blushed once-yes I do that! Try doing the Besa (sp?), the kiss, move without having a reaction to it if you feel it in your body when some beautiful man his holding you in his arms-OH MY! Well I think it will take a few years just to find out how I'm to stand and breathe and dance all at the same time-hold your stomach up and in, chest out, almost at an angle toward your partner, keep your upper body in one place and then have your feet go in one direction and have your upper body face in a different direction-and don't forget to breathe and HAVE FUN! Yikes! But the 3 session I had were really great, the last one was the best as I started to finally feel it!

December I had gone out on the Promenade in Santa Monica with this guy and got a small taste of Lindy Hop and Salsa! I know I loved Salsa when I took lessons in India back in 2000-2001, so that was great. Well I woke up last week 2 days in a row with images of this dance that I could only say it must have been Lindy Hop. So I had to go. I took my first lesson last night-MAN OH MAN!!! This must be the most fun dance with steps in the world! I mean, you can't be unhappy or think anything but happy thoughts and be in bliss when you are dancing this! My immediate reaction was "hey my mother used to do this in our living room" what fun! Well sign me up as I am now not only signed up for 4 classes, but next week I'll be signing up for 4 more, if not a double class one one of those nights! Oh my oh my! Such excitement! On top of it, I met someone last night that wants to practice with me, so we did that today, on top of another aquaintance and I will be going out (he's been doing this for years) Lindy Hopping the night away tomorrow night!

I also have one man that I have met via the internet that wants to start doing Salsa with me! I am loving this! I'll let you know what happens with that!

I am getting great images of how I want to dance, how I want to perform-which is a HUGE intention for this year! I am also looking at different dance company's and have written a few to see if we'd be a good fit! I'm excited by all the possibilities of everything!

Sukhi, my kitty is now 6 months, she's been amazing and a little monster all at the same time. She is learning she has claws and how to use them on the carpeting, couch and sometimes if you get close enough to love on her-well your skin gets to experience her claws too. The training of getting her not to do this is very challenging for me. I love her and get tired of the word no-still. But lately she has been going through teenage stuff, "leave me alone or I'll tear your up, now love me, no, not that way, this way...or else I'll leave if you don't do it just so...oh goodness, I'll sit over here then...purrr purrr purrr". Yes that is what it seems like she says in her reaction to people. She loves licking hair, head hair, armpit hair-especially sweaty armpit hair, all those pheromones she loves, she loves to sleep in my armpit if I lay on the floor-she sleeps alone now-no longer wanting to cuddle. She loves to lick, which I love...so sweet. Her eyes has gone from green to now they are yellow, very different, but lovely!

This year is already teaching me to trust, I ended up cutting my finger deeply on a mirror and had to have 5 stitches and being a massage therapist and someone who needs my hands to dance-well this put things on pause for about 2 weeks. I luckily just trusted, I got a lot done and people came to me for meditations, exercises that didn't use my hands or I could use mostly my forearms or right hand for massaging or just energy work. I did end up teaching until my doctor told me to stop it as my cut wasn't healing because of it. OOPs! Plus he didn't stress how important it was to use the brace on my finger and after 24 hours I hit the brace really hard, took it off and decided it wasn't needed-another ooops, wrong. Tssk tssk to me. Well once the doctor told me to stop teaching and wear it, I did it, even longer then expected, just to make up for not doing it before! Do I get brownie points for that? Who knows, but it's healing now. In another week I assume it will be back to normal.

Anyway, there is much more to tell, but I'll let cha go for now. Oh, it's been lovely this year, I am back to meditating daily, which has been amazing, to the point of connnecting directly with spirit in such a way that I heard the voice of my guide. Such a magical experience and in perfect timing. As I needed some support in letting go and it just was perfect for calming the soul and directing me to peace.

I am sending you love and light! Follow Your Hearts Desire, this is my mantra this year, maybe it can be yours as well!
Blissfully and lovingly, Heather

Life is Art!

Life is Art

Yes Life is Art
Can you feel that?
See it?
Taste it?

Just take a moment…
How do you eat?
From the time you see your food
To the time that you are placing it in your mouth
To the way you chew it
To how you swallow it
It’s all art

The way you take in the scent of your food
This is art
How much time do you take to really smell your food?
Taking it in before you take it in
It’s an art

How you look at your life,
The people who pass you on the street
How you hug
How you reach out and touch someone’s shoulder
It’s art
Life is art, yes it is, so much of it is, what isn’t art?
I don’t know what isn’t art……My mind goes blank to find something that isn’t art

A fire that warms you is art,
How you placed the logs,
What paper you used to light the fire
What colors came at first when it came to light
How did you place to paper?
Was it paper that shifted colors as it started
It’s all art

The way you taste
that first glass of liquid in the morning
the taste of your lovers skin
how you run your tongue over them
it’s art, oh yes it’s art
making love is art, it’s one of the greatest arts
moving, meshing, merging, breathing in, tasting,
smelling, feeling, licking, blissing
the pleasure of moving together
different speeds, positions, slower, faster
eyes open, eyes closed,
dancing in and around the others body
touching, kissing, pulling, pushing, caressing,
nails scratching, biting, contractions, explosions of openness
oh yes, making love, the best form of art
slow down and really appreciate it
open all those senses
and then quicken the pace of passion
yes, it’s art, such luscious art
the art of love, of passion, of heaven
art, oh art, yes loving making is art

There is the art of walking
Dancing, smiling, how your eyes move
What clothes you put on, how you put them on
How you touch your body-oh yes, this is definitely art
Putting that oil or lotion on your skin,
Soaping up your body in the shower
How you lather up your hair
Shave your legs or face-if you do such artful things
They are all art
Next time you do one of these things see the art in it

How you place the book back on the shelf
Opening your computer or turning it on
How you pet your pet
How you pull the blanket up over your in bed
Turning on and off the light
Yes it’s all art
As life is art
Just look around you
The chair you sit in
The scent you are smelling
how it was cooked & the smoke that rose from it when it was cooked
Such art every where

How do you put on your shoes to go to work,
For your hike, to the store or to go to those dance lessons/classes
It’s all beauty, it’s all art
It’s just how we look at it
Our lives are about art
See where art is all around you
Within you and is you
Art is life, life is art
Art

Heather Rhea Dawn

Dance with Presence, Dance with Life, Dance In Life!

Dance with Presence, Dance with Life, Dance In Life!

Yes, Dance is the journey
Isn't it?
Yes it is.
The dance isn't the end point,
it is the now point,
the here and now point.
We are all dancing right now,
it's called life....this dance
The dance is life
Or is it life is the Dance.
I say yes to both
Be Present, Be here and now
Be Life
Be the dance
Allow your heart to sing each moment

Yes, sing, dance, feel
Let it be heard
And LIVE by IT
It screams to be lived by
It cries, it celebrates, it wishes, it hopes
Oh let it soar,let your heart be heard

Let you heart move your dance
This way your heart gets to dance
Be seen, be felt, be heard, and LIVED!
Yes be LIVED fully, right here right now.
So listen,
oh listen
listen so closely
so still-ly
yes, be still
be ever so quiet
you'll hear it
it will speak to you
so go in, close your beautiful eyes
let that heart, that big glorious heart of yours
be heard
and then dance it's dance
Celebrate it's passion, your desire
Expand, explore, explode!!!
As there is NOTHING we can't do
Nothing.

And the best thing we can do is dance our hearts desires!
Lets go in and rise up,
raise up out of our sleep
and LIVE OUR DREAMS

Let's live our dance, our song, our hearts words and feelings.
The time is now
Will you listen?
Will you dance now?
Maybe you can reach out for support if you feel you can't do it alone
We will support each other to grow, to lift our hearts
Let's dance, sing and listen together

Dance you dance
Sing your song
Live your heart's desire
Love yourself this much
To LISTEN, to LIVE, to BE, to BE YOU!

Dance with Presence, Dance with Life, Dance In Life!

YES! My Kitten Dances!!! Goals & Dreams!

YES! My Kitten Dances!!!

What a wild, amazing and great month! Right now I’m in integration and recovery from so much love, healing and opening! WOW WOW WOW! It’s been a passionate month of growth, dance, connection and energy sharing!

Not sure how many read my last blog, I didn’t post it but it is here later on this page. But I have under gone some glorious Tantric healings that have completely opened me up to myself and released so many fears and opened to so much pleasure, joy and bliss that wore myself out. Sharing energy with people on the dance floor, shaking, vibrating and flowing in the bliss of connection, I found myself laughing, going in deep and coming out peaceful. Oh yes, life is so very good.

On top of this my birthday was last week, odd week for me in one way as I was so introverted, wanting to be inside, feeling and just to be with myself. But then having planned a party for myself and because of a certain internet networking group so many found out it was my birthday and so much love was outpoured on me. I had to reach out and into receive a deepening of receiving to take in all the love that was there, for me. There was a sharing of such gorgeous stories of my relationships with all of the people at my party as well as how they feel about me in their lives. It was an exercise of opening, expanding and allowing all of this in. I feel everyone should experience this at least once a year. We have no idea how we touch people.

And then of course on the day I got to got to go to dance and be celebrated by the lift, I was high on life on top of being in their hands, being held by their arms, hearts and legs. All I could do it laugh and celebrate in the bliss of all these loving being surrounding me, supporting me and celebrating me. WOW! YES! YUMMY! BLISS to the max! And then right after that a girlfriend depants-ed (how do you spell that, goodness) me! Yep, and of course what do I do, I squeal! One guy came up to say thanks for the squeal, as it drew more attention to you!

I have been doing dance classes at my home for the past few months and Monday I decided to step it up and actually teach some of the aerial contact, stretches and trust exercises, it was so fun. I loved it! What was even more fun is to find that my kitty loves to dance too! Yes she dances and now even more so. I will be walking around the house and she’ll come out and grab my leg and swing around, no claws just dancing. She’ll walk under us as we dance, go through our legs, rub up against us and I’ll pick her up from time to time to include her more in the contact dance. It’s so great! I love that she is so social, so willing to join, very confident with everything and knows she won’t get squashed.

So this time alone, I’ve been really feeling gratitude for so much in my life, the people, my health, my ability to dance, to teach my passion and to share this with the people in my life. Though my biggest thing I’m grateful for is my community, of dancers, of tanticas, my friends that touch me. My life is full, my heart if full, I am touched my the ones close to me, the ones that I touch and how we move, grow, laugh, cry and expand together. I finally have best friends to share my life with and that has been a long time. If you remember all those months ago, my first month in Thailand I put my intention to have more females in my life and have a best friend that is female. Well I have that now and then some!

That brings me to intentions for the coming year, which I am so very excited for as I feel so supported. It’s so easy to run from our dreams. Though my dreams have never really changed, maybe shifted but not changed since I was 4 years old. The main one is “I am a dancer” that is and has been and always will be my truth. So this coming year, I’m creating a life where dance is the base of my life. Performing, teaching, creating, opening to more and expanding in the light of dance, which is my soul. I want Dance to be the center of my life and will be and so it is! It’s time, at 39 years old, though I feel 26 years old, it’s time to live this dream. How about you, what is your dream, your unlived dream? Something to think about, feel into and go for.

I spend my days now listening to music, dancing, filing music, working out, thinking of new ways to teach, looking at how to shift my space I teach in now and make it bigger-some new redecorating is in order! It’s time, commitment and a little time and it will happen! What is even more incredible is how much support I’m getting in all of this. I have people wanting to support me in giving me more ideas on how I can expand my work. So I’m thrilled to be creating with people on this project of dance, living, supporting myself and creating a life of dance.

On top of all of this, I am getting the chance to support others in their dreams with possibly being in their videos, etc. More on that later.

Life is good here, still a bit internal at times, but it feels good, healthy and very self loving.
Thanks for being in my life, thanks for being the precious soul you are. I appreciate you.
Much love to you, Heather

PS. Remember to tell the ones you love, that you love them, as you may not get a second chance! XXXOOO

A Real Day Off!!!

November 18, 2008

A Real Day Off!

I woke up this morning from a very blissful yesterday. I had a great work out yesterday, I did some Tantric work with a friend that was so healing for both of us. I was the giver but man oh man, you really heal on both sides, being the giver and receiver in this glorious work. It opens one up to all the issues at hand, our blocks, fears and has us go in deeper, dive in, feel, sense, eyes open….fully awake, incredibly conscious we grow, let go and go through our stuff. It is so magical to be doing such deep work, so consciously. I can’t tell you how fulfilling it is to be touched consciously, to touch consciously.

It doesn’t matter if it’s sexual or arousing, non arousing…it’s the fact that you can feel love coming into your body, or going out into another’s body. That bring a certain centered, energy rising, relaxed feeling within. It is so comforting to the soul to know that the one who is touching is touching out of love, not need, not wondering about the next step or if we are going have sex…..as it’s all healing….there is no sex, there is no next step, it’s conscious loving touch, it’s raising the energy and letting it expand and open and then spreading it through the body and then raising, relaxing all over again. It’s expansion like I’ve never known and all in safe hands of a friend, not a lover, just a loving friend.

So after this Tantric afternoon I went to a friends place to dance amongst friends. Through opening to give this work earlier it opened me to really give and receive energy in the dance and Pow, Boom, Bang!!!! Passion, love, heart opening experiences happened. The fear of “what if….this or what if that” left the building, my energy was open, everyone felt it and thank goodness it was contagious and we all just took off in sensual delight of a dance. I raised my friends into the air, I taught the dance I love so much through flying them into the air, having them laugh, melt and fall in love with the dance even more. Honestly it just cracks me up to lift someone and have them immediately laugh, look at me and the feeling that pours from them is love, love of the dance, love for being there and the love for the dancer holding them, that would be me-it’s powerful. One guy that showed up that night, new to energy got so opened, he was vibrating for some days afterward, very powerful stuff and so healing.

Since it was my friends birthday and after a lovely delicious and intimate night of dance we all gave him a clothed massage until I broke out the ice cream…..we used him as beautiful tray and ate the ice cream off his back….well at least the women did, the men weren’t too into that with another man. He laughed with joyous bliss and we closed in a very intimate hug of the group.

This morning, after 8 hours of sleep, waking up at 9am, I curled up, snuggled and cuddled with Sukhi, she purred and just drank it in. Then I was up to check emails, get some breakfast going, just being in the moment. It was lovely. I decided to give Sukhi her first bath for no reason but to get her used to the water. I went into the tub with her. I put her down into the tub and she turned in fright and hung on to me, no claws-amazing how she can do that. She was so scared…I just held her, let her move, let her cling to me and then when she realized I was there, she wasn’t going to drown she relaxed and sat there with me. She allowed me to put water on her as she looked up at me checking in with me. I think making sure she was ok. I feel since I was in there with her she felt safer. It was a bonding moment for us. I grabbed her towel, wrapped her up in it and took her into the living room, rocking her like a baby, drying her slowly as she gazed up at me knowing she was ok and feeling safe in my arms.

After putting her down I walked into the other room, I sat down and picked up one of my Tantra books to read more on the subject. Reading about women and Tantra, and how important having our own practice is and how our bodies respond to stimulation, orgasm, sex and pregnancy. It was so powerful to read about. It got me very centered, very here and now. It woke something up in me even more powerful then it was just yesterday, a centeredness, an awakening to do the practice and go to share the energy with others.

As the day moved on, I drove down to the beach and took a walk. The beach beckoned me like a moth craving that flame. I needed to be outside, I needed the fresh air, the sound of the sea and the sand beneath my feet. As I walked something told me to stop, stop here. So I did. I lay down on my sarong and went into this deep place of the now. My mind of course left and came back but honestly there wasn’t a whole lot of attachment to the thoughts, the thoughts just passed. So gorgeous to just feel my body on the sand, to be present, to feel my body pressing into the sand, the perfect temperature of the sun radiating on my body, the breeze was just at the right speed for comfort and presence.

I stayed there for I’m not sure how long….all I do know is two things, one is I usually get off the beaching saying “I have to do this or that” pushing myself to leave, but today there wasn’t that, I was just in bliss for having this glorious time there, I felt very full and not rushed. As I stood and walked to my car I felt, now this is a day off. No plans, no where to be, just being present, reading, writing, being in nature….opening, seeing the thoughts, feeling my feelings and moving forward. I learned so much in the time of relaxation, no stressful thoughts-well one, when this man yelled at me on the road, but oh well….: ) I moved on. I got back to my car and the second thing I noticed was that I’d been out there for 2 ½ hours, WOW, how lovely. Then it really felt like a real day off.

Last week I went with a girlfriend to Deep Creek. This is a magical place the people drive 2- 2 ½ hours to hike down to this river about 45 minutes to let go of the city. You strip off. No need for clothes there, there were a few locals there as it wasn’t the weekend. And we all sat in the numerous natural hot springs, then dip in the ice cold river and back to the hot springs. Laying on the earth was just lovely, feeling the warmth, the cold, all of it was so lovely. It was a hard decision at first to go, I felt like I was playing hooky from school, which I didn’t even do in school…but I had no clients that day and said “what the heck” and went for it. I’m glad I did. I came back to dance with friends until midnight and then passed out.

That relaxed feeling from the hot springs stayed with me through out the next day.
I see everyone around me, including myself going through so much lately, so much is being worked through. I think it’s partly the holidays coming up, the new year coming up pressing on them that another year is here and the reality that dreams want to come out of all of us and they want to be looked at, felt and manifested. I can feel them all happening.

I know for me I am being requested more and more every week to teach dance so I feel I’m weeks away from that, maybe sooner. I teach it to people anyway, so why not have a class with it. How fun! We might as well enjoy what we do for work, it allows more success into our lives and passion for others to see, feel and grow from.

I’ve been thinking about success and what it takes to be a successful person. And what I have really gotten is not that they have made a lot of money, the dollar amount doesn’t make someone successful. It’s the amount of joy and happiness they get from their work and the allowance of love all around them. This is what makes one successful. So if we can just remember to do what we love, what we are passionate about we will grow in success, as people will see you love it and they will come to you. We’ve all seen the opposite, why not choose the other way, it really is the easier path, for the heart and soul that is and sometimes even for the body.

That night, last Tuesday I received another Tantric Healing session and it was powerful, the tears, the tenderness, the passion, the ecstaticness, sadness and so much that came up to be seen, felt, embraced, breathed through and to be held in the light of love no matter what. Such beautiful, healing work. I am grateful for this time, for this work and for the power to grow.

May you be healing, may you find success in all areas of your life and may you be surrounded by love always.
Love and blessings, Heather

Mommihood, Dreams Coming True & On International Radio!

Hello there,
How are you? I hope you are finding fun, play and exploration in your life everyday! For me Sukhi is keeping me on my toes. I really have gotten a small taste of what it would be like to be a mommy. And oh my goodness the motherly intincts that kick in are powerful- to protect, to clean, to nurture, to care for. I was driving her in my car and I was extra aware of her being in my car and driving more safely.

In the photos above are a few of her favorite places to be-in the window for fresh air and light, next to my computer when I am working and then a few with me. She will also lay in the bed of a plant I have too.

I have a funny story, this happened this morning. Now Sukhi has a fascination with the bathroom. I'm not sure if it's because the door is always shut and she can't get in there all the time or what, but she loves to play with the little hair catchers and fly them all over the bathroom. She loves to study, sit, lick and play in the sink and the tub. She has even gotten so curious whilst I'm taking a bath that she fell in. Oh the poor thing didn't know what hit her. I wrapped her up in my towel and cuddled her up until she was ready to come out of the towel.

Well this morning beat that. She heard me in the bathroom, she came flying around the corner and without knowing or thinking she flew up onto the toilet, where the toilet seat was up and in she went into the toilet-YIKES!!! To make it worse what she didn't know was it wasn't clean water-not that you wanted to know that.

I realized the next step and chased after her, hoping she wouldn't get on anything, I grabbed her, put her in the tub and she officially had her first bath. She did so well...so much that by the end I didn't even have to keep my hands on her. She just sat there and got bathed, rinsed and then let me wrap her up, dry her off until she was ready to lick herself off and go off to play again.

I have to say she has really changed my life, opening my heart, showing me how to just cuddle with her in the mornings, she makes me realize there is more to life then to focus on work, though I almost feel that there is space for me to really go in and dream my dreams, and now they are manifesting.

Firstly, about 3 months ago I realized day and night I started really dreaming of the dance the I do with Rob, which we call Aerial Contact. We tend to dance and create more and more of it 3-6 times a week. It so thrills and excites me. I actually get depressed if I don't get to do it for a week, my whole system is just so happy when I'm flying. But something shifted about 6-8 weeks ago with it. About 2 months ago I started having dance in my home every Thursday and once I started that I started lifting and flying people. I have no fell in love with flying people, lifting them into the air and just allowing them to float, fly, flow and dance, swing or what ever they need to do.

I love doing this especially with people who haven't flown before as once they come down off me they look completely blissed out. It's as if they had a little peice of heaven, one of my friends told me it was as if he went back to the womb or being held by his mother, very safe and held so warmly.

Men have a special reaction to it especially when a woman lifts them. First none of them can believe me, being around 125 lbs, can lift them being 165-185 lbs. But after some practice and time I can do it and it's so fun. Now I can't take them to my shoulders but it's so delicious to take them around my waist and as high as I can,sometimes to my chest. It's so much fun and they are just completely in heaven to be held, flown and slowly moved.

Even some of my female friends are just so excited they can't get enough. I keep getting people asking me to teach it, so I am teaching it more and more in my home and will probably make it more of a class soon instead of just friends coming over. One of my next steps is to start performing this work. It's so powerful and intimate. It teaches people balance, slowing down, strength and how to be in relationship with another and it truly is a meditation. It takes me to God or Spirit higher and faster then anything I have ever felt in my life.

I have been turned on to something in the past few weeks that involves lifting and I had never thought about. But it combines Acrobats with Yoga and after watching these people lift people into yoga poses with their legs and arms, I just had to be a part of it. I took two classes. The second one sold me on it. I was in an odd mood all day-it had been a hard week with work, etc, but I went the class and came out high as a kite and my business turned around the next day!

So the following weekend I went off to their 3 day workshop and explored some really fun work of Acroyoga. What I really loved about it is how community oriented it is, how you stretch with others and really get to connect with people.

Life is really taking me in a direction I love. I am getting ready for another change that has to do with dance, but it is still brewing and I can let you know when it is manifested.

The other HUGE thing that has happened lately was I was on International Radio the other day. This has been in the plans for months and it finally happened. It went out to over a million people world wide. This woman who does a radio show dreamt of interviewing someone that teaches Tantra/Sacred Sexuality and her name was Heather. So she went into her computer, punched that in and came up with me. We got along great. Deborah is an amazing spirit, the woman who interviewed me. We just really click. So we put it into action, it got postponed several times and then finally Thursday we had a great one hour session and she wants me back for Valentines. It will be up on the internet for uploading for free for 3 months in 2 weeks. So I'll let you know about that.

That interview really lifted me, I was so excited. This week with the whole president election, I think with astrology, etc everyone is in an emotional state. Most everyone I know are really inward and having breakdowns and break throughs whilst spending time alone. I have felt this hugely. Firstly on Tuesday as the election was going on and the day went on I could feel people starting to breathe. It was as if all of of the US or LA had been holding their breath and when they realized we were about to have the change we needed and it was here everything started to relax.

So then by that night everyone exploded in tears, laughter, the fear was released. On Wednesday is when it really hit me and I just let the tears flow, finally, the change has happened. I could feel the Universe around me breathe and my shoulders could come down and I could melt into my life. The moment I released all the pent up holding, pain, fear, angst and the relief came into me, knowing the business would be looking up and soar. Sure enough, I got booked Wednesday. I was blessed last week with some great new clients that I've already had repeat sessions with.

So the US is calming. I'm very excited by this. Finally, we had a real election, got a real life family president, no cheating on the ballets, no fake president, a real person and for the first time an African American President for us, but more importantly is a real family man. WE need that for America.

So between dance, friends, my kitty, working on an invention for people to help their dance, hiking, working out, lifting people and back writing, (started my writing class again!!!!) I am busy, though some slow times here and there. Actually starting to buddy up with people to get projects done. As us self employed people can really get un-action oriented so we are really reaching out and starting to feel a need to keep one another on track. It's very exciting.

May all your loving heart dreams come true. I would love to hear what you are up to. Even if it's the struggle for getting out of the struggle. I've been there, I'm there almost every week at times. Life has it's ups and downs, we just have to keep thinking the next higher vibrational thought. The thought that supports us to be more positive, go further, reach higher. We all need support, so reach out, the pain we all have is a shared pain, we are never alone and maybe someone will inspire you to look a little more positive, give you a hand with a loving word and then life will brighten up.

I've been listening to Esther & Jerry Hicks lately and they just blow me away. I love it. I use their work so often now within my life. I highly recommend them. She channels a spirit named Abraham who is actually several spirits but has much to teach and share with us about moving into a higher frequency.

I send you love and many hugs, Blissfully, Heather

Here is a poem I wrote about Sukhi the other day:
November 5, 2008

Sukhi in the Morning

I woke to her in the curve of my neck
Yes, nuzzled in there
Nice and tight
Warm and softly breathing
I nuzzled her with my chin
She took her arm across my chest
Pressing in closer
Relaxing deeper
More contently
Ever so sweetly
As I petted her with my chin
She started purring
Yes it got so loud with love
So in love
It made my heart sing
After minutes she rose to face me
With her sleepy little face
Her golden eyes not quite open
Her half black, partially white and orange face
Looking at me sleepily
And I knew,
I knew
I am her mommy
This is Sukhi in the Morning with Me