Hello there,
Wow, it's been since April since I've written, I had no idea. How are you? I hope life is going really great for you.
So let me see if I can scrunch 5 months into short note to you. In April I went into deep meditations and both times they told me to leave LA or get ready to leave LA June 1st. Well June first came and my roommate give his notice. Something in me told me "this is the sign". I first resisted it and then relaxed into it.
All in one day I found a subletter for my place, a house to live in in Santa Rosa (Northern Cali) and got a job there. Let me back up a little, at first I was going to get rid of my apartment but my landlord never got my notice, and subletting felt more relaxing to my heart. My apartment has been my home for 8 years. I love it.
So after a few more dance performances, the last one being 2 nights before I left-which was the best one I ever did. We showed up to dance to live music in this gorgeous church and the muscians tell us we'll be performing for 30-45 minutes. My dance partner had never done that, and I'd only done that in front of one of my friends once....I danced for 2.5 hours from him as a birthday present for him. It was a great performance, I brought out one of the muscians and played with him and the music and danced to it. The muscians were amazing, my dance partner too.
July 14th I drove out of LA, filled with love from friends of a great going away party and dance, the performance....left in a BANG.
I was wiped out, packed up my Sukhi girl, she'd never been in a car longer than an hour, but the drive up north was good, she did great, the great little puss just laid next to my thigh until she found a little cave to sleep in and that is where she stayed on our way up. I stayed with a friend in Mountain View, THANK GOODNESS. I just was so tired from packing, being emotional. Leaving my best friend was so hard and my home.
I got up to Santa Rosa and found that they have a Farmers Market with lots of music, dance and food every night of the week in a different town near by. Wow, that was great. Outside music and dancing and food, all within 20 minutes everyday. How wonderful.
My first weekend in the dance community I had a great connection with some people. A girlfriend was up from LA and we all went out for Indian food at the Farmers Market in Sebastopol, laying on a blanket, relaxing, touching, sharing. It was lovely.
Then we went to listen to live music else where. One man offered to us all to fix dinner at his place and we all went there, ate together, went in the jacuzzi. It was so filling for my soul. To be in such community.
The next weekend I will filled with community in Sausalito of food with dance people, movie, fixing food and sharing. It was great. I love this.
I got a job doing hair, my first "job" in 9.5 years, at first it was GREAT! Now it's a little hard. Taking tine off or actually wanting to choose my days off isn't going so well.
My great housing situation went from being, I LOVE THIS HOUSE, still do, but the roommates not so great. I realized shortly into it I was living with an alcoholic, smokers, TV addicts that slept with the TV on, which I couldn't sleep through and not so healthy people. Plus the last few days of living there I realize they were going to start growing pot in the basement. No thank you. So I moved out Sept 1st.
A few things have happened and I've thought...maybe it's time to be on the road, Ashland, OR is calling me. The idea of buying a van and going across country getting a job here and there, writing, sewing, reading and being free sounds great to my soul.
But then the other option is a friend of mine and I are considering starting a community home. So that is another options. More options coming my way are to keep my apartment in LA or not? I love it, my subletters are moving out Oct 1st. I'll see. It's all good. It's good to sit with these things, feel them out and go from intuition with it.
I'm loving the hiking here in Northern Cali. I am living in Fairfax with a friend of mine. Deer in my backyard, little birds and animals here and there. Sukhi is loving this house, running all over loving the space. She and I were having a great moment today of me loving on her and her purrring away, I was loving it, feeling very mommilike. Loving her purr and smelling her.
The smell of nature is making me very happy and all the differences of life here. So many amazing things going on, but I'll save more for later.
May this life be treating you so beautiful. Know that we only live in the body once, see what we can do today that makes living really worth living today.
Today I took a great hike and writing this makes living really a great place for me. I love writing...it feels so good. I love catching up with you.
I'd love to hear from you. Sending you so much love and many hugs, Heather
Bliss to you!
Friday, September 3, 2010
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
In My Element!
Hello there,
Wow, has it already been over 3 months since I have written...man oh man, time flies and so much has happened in that short time.
Firstly, how are you? How is life? Is your heart living out loud and soul beaming from the inside out?
About two months ago I got this amazing massage client that through just listening to him, his life, his experience I got something huge about myself. And I want to share it as it has changed my life...maybe it can help you and others in your life too. I love being inspired and I love to inspire people to live life fully. I know how hard it can be when we get in that rut. But once we commit to doing it anyway...the stuff that is scary then it gets easier to do it next time and so on.
What I got out of talking with this lovely man, was he follows his heart, if it doesn't want to do something, he doesn't do it. I realized that the past few years of my career, I stopped only doing what I wanted, and started feeling obligated to do things-take late appts, or on my day off or deal with energies that weren't healthy for me. The words that came to me was "to thine own self be true". I must say it to myself everyday. How am I being true of not true to myself right now and how can I change it or embrace it more? It's been a lovely journey. Not always easy. But amazing. It so amazing to feel proud of yourself, and I do, I feel proud of myself.
I've put this into play in so many areas of my life, not allowing things to happen or do things I don't want to, or doing things, when I'm tired because I know I really do want to and not letting the mind or body to change what I wanted to do and allow myself to be inspired to do things I really do want to do. Like the other night, a friend was having a birthday party, I was tired, didn't want to leave home, but then I realized, "I love this woman, I want to be there, tired or not". I got in my car and I went. I am so happy I went, as it was honoring the true desire and not the temporary want.
My commitment for this year was to make my life about dance, create an income from dance, perform and facilitate classes. My intention I got was I want to do workshops all over the world, travel with my work, as well as make dance clothes, write more and a few things are brewing within as well.
Thus far this year has proven to hear and act upon my intention. Just last month, 3rd month of the new year I started my own ecstatic dance class. I call it The Ecstatic Soul! Ecstatic Dance for the Soul! My gift to this work and to the world is to create community through connection. To play, to honor the child within and be where you are fully within yourself. If that means you need to curl up in a ball, so be it, if you want to be wild or dance with another, honor where your soul is at. So that is my intention for my work.
I'm loving promoting it and putting it out there as it feels so right for me, my soul. There is no shyness around it, it's what I'm to be doing, I feel it. And my classes, though only 2 thus far(this year), are getting better and it feel so natural, in my element.
In these 2 classes I have learned so much about myself. I have seen where in the past that I have tried to teach "like that person, or that teacher", but it didn't feel right. So now, I'm realizing what my thing is, it's being me, in my laughter, joy or being inward...dancing with all or going in deeply and being with me, even while teaching. I see that there isn't any other way to teach but this way. As all other ways are not mine, they are others...and they are already out there, so why be another "them", the Universe already has them, the Universe is asking me to be "ME" and it's amazing and so very easy to just be me, instead of being someone else. My goodness, what a concept. You mean all I have to do is be me? That's it! Wow, that's beautiful. I'll do it, and I'm doing and being me...it feels so free.
It was only 24 years ago when I heard myself say "I want to play my own music to dance too. To be a DJ". Well that wish has come true. I'm so thrilled by this. I bought the DJ music, I'm getting to know it. I'm looking at speakers...I'm organizing my music and thrilled to be on my path. I get to do something I love everyday, listen to music. That's a beautiful thing. And then 3 times a month I get to facilitate my class and give people a new place to dance, connect in and with others. I feel like I'm giving something that I've been wanting to give for years now.
On top of this, in January I talked to this man who is a professional dancer about doing a performance group, he announced it to a dance class 3 days later. 5 weeks ago we started teaching together and May 1st and 2nd we are performing the peice we have been working on. I've been stretched through this and learned a lot about myself, teaching with other, how to put together a performance peice and thrilled that he loved my ideas so much that my ideas are the basis for the whole performance.
Here I've never taught a performance group, nor taught with another person for a whole series or put together a performance peice with people that are doing the work we are creating together. Wow. And now performing again. I see life presenting me exactly what I am wanting and asking for. And I'm feeling really blessed by all of this. I love how we can create our reality. We just need to make sure our soul is aligned with what we are asking for.
Last month I started training in RC CoCounseling. It's powerful and really healing work. Here I've been feeling the past 7-10 months I've been coming into myself, letting of things on a rapid pace and loving my life more and more and healing so many things within. And now...with RC it's just boosted things up a notch or two. It's a process of learning how to listen, not to interrupt, but possibly coach the person, if they want it, and to fully be LISTENED to! Do you know how healing that is...I didn't realize how healing it was until this work. It's powerful. I highly recommend it for anyone out there who wants to learn how to just listen and to give yourself the gift of being listened to, hearing yourself speak about the things you appreciate about yourself, the good things of childhood and then all the other stuff, always starting out with some good things, to see the good in my life and then going into everything else. So we can see what the good stuff is. It's miraculous!
I just went on a trip up to my old stomping grounds in Santa Rosa, I lived there 11 years ago for 5.5 years. I never remembered it being so green. It was gorgeous and glorious. My best friend, Rob, and I went up to be filmed dancing in nature by a friend of ours. But because of circumstances we had to film inside mostly. But we got some amazing footage.
It was an awesome trip full of dancing with new people, sharing time with new friends, hiking, being filmed dancing and just opening my mind to the possibility of...huummmmm...could I live here again? Not sure. But I certainly love that they have a dance community up there now and I see how I can bring my gift there as well. So nice to feel that and get out of town.
Ok, that is probably enough for now. I have attached my flier, so you can read on a little of what I'm doing, or you can go to my website for more info: www.theecstaticbody.com and to see the creation of my flier. It was so much fun to make.
I know life is busy, but I'd love to hear from you. Even if it was a line saying how you are doing.
Sending you love and bliss, Heather
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Hello there my Sweet Friends,
I know it's been a while since you have heard from me. Much has been going on. How are you? How your dance, called life, on this planet we call earth? I trust your heart, health, mind and spirit are well. I'd love to hear from you.
I thought I'd give you a brief outline of my 2009, since it's been over 6 months since you've heard from me. But I'll start at the beginning. The highlights of 2009 were:
-I started out the year very abundant.
-I got stitches in my finger from a deep cut from a mirror. First stitches since childhood, but only the first of 2 sets of stitches for the year.
-I fell in love, I mean, head over heals in love, wildly and passionately. More about that later.
-I taught Aerial Contact in my home for 6 months- which is teaching people how to lift people into the air while dancing.
-I took my first Contact Improv Classes. I figured I'm teaching my version of Contact, I might as well see what Contact Improv is...it was nice to take some workshops and classes and learn how others teach this work.
-I was gifted a surgery that I had postponed doing for 11 years-second set of stitches.
-10 weeks after surgery I performed a dance peice I created to a paying audience.
-I started regularly doing Scar Tissue and Lymphatic Massage on clients and being able to teach them this work to support their health.
-Hit the big 40!
-One of the things I'm very excited about is that I taught my first Ecstatic Dance class and it was a great success with many people asking for the next one!
-I started back with my meditation practice and studying Buddhism, which is making me very happy, balanced and feeling so much more well rounded internally.
I have made some powerful intentions this year and I'm very excited about them. Just to share a few:
One is to support myself through my art of dance, sewing, performing, creativity and facilitating classes.
Opening to be with my life partner.
Heal and empower myself more in all areas of my life. I love that work Empower.
Spend more time in nature
Possibly start my journey to South America.
This past year has been a good one, full of newness, love, passion, big AH HA'S and scariness of decisions. But it was a great year for growth and perspective.
Falling in love was the most amazing thing of this year. Funny how you sometimes your don't know you are in love until after it's over. As beautiful, passionate, fun and alive as it was, sometimes self caring is the more important thing. The biggest lesson was that sometimes to get what you want (the end goal), you have to choose the opposite of that in the moment to get it in the future.
Mine was realizing this man had just gotten out of a 10 year relationship, 1 week before we met (I didn't know that for 2-3 months, I thought it had been 3 months-wordage is a funny thing), and 4 months into being with him, he had taken me to his town, introducing me to everyone he knew. I realized he needed to be a free man and I needed to care for myself by getting out of it, as I wasn't getting what I needed. So good to know what you need, ask for it and then honor it. It doesn't always look like it's what you want but it truly is...to love the self.
And then in August I gave birth to a fibroid the size of a 4 month old fetus. Ok ok, not a birth, but a surgery, a surgery that is the same as giving birth surgically, meaning it wasn't a natural birth.
Back 11 years ago, a doctor told me I had fibroids in my uterus and immediately wanted to take me into surgery. I was not having any of that. I realized I didn't believe in surgery. I got in touch with why the fibroids were there. I did a number of things, that honestly looking back at it is the most funny thing and would make a great one woman show if I shared with you all the craziness that I did to rid them of my body, any where from having my lover pouring olive oil up me, to taking disgusting tasting herbs, rubbing all kinds of things on my body, taking hormones that at first caused me extreme bliss, to suicidal thoughts. Yikes!
The pain got worse, I wasn't able to dance as well. I felt as if I had HUGE testicles on the inside of my belly bouncing around. Very unsexy.
It was pretty profound how it all happened. I thought about surgery, told a friend about is, she saw this info where I could get the exact surgery I needed and Voila! Within 4-5 weeks I was in surgery. It was scariest and hardest thing I ever had to decide in my life. But I had such amazing support and so much love around me. All that, on top of being at one of the top hospitals, with one of the best doctors, all for free-that doesn't happen often in the US. So I felt very taken care of and healing was great. I have the whole thing documented on video, my friend will be publishing it for scar tissue massage, which I am now doing.
I am actually considering putting together an organization now to support women through surgeries. No woman or man for that matter should go alone. I am so grateful I had people all around me, laying in bed with me all day the first day out. So healing. I learned so much through this and would love to give my wisdom on this subject to others.
Anyway, 10 weeks after surgery I performed to my first paying audience. Which was a blast. I got to put together my own work, I designed, dyed and sewed my own outfit for it. Everyone involved were amazing dancers.
OH, on top of that I turned 40 this year, yes, that is right, I'm 40! The best shape in my life, very strong, fit and full of life, energy and dancin' my bootie off. I've been wanting to be 40 since I was 16 years old, so I'm happy for this. I know this decade is going to be amazing.
In December I put on, as my birthday gift for me, and ecstatic dance class. It was amazing, so much fun. I got some great feedback and reviews. I am planning on my next class, I want to do something more regular. There is something amazing about giving people a space to dance to great music. What magic happens!
In December I went back to Meditation classes and sits, it's been amazing. I am loving it.
I have tons already in the fires starting for next month. I'll share those later.
I look forward to hearing from you. I'd love to catch up.
I'd love to hear your high lights from last year and if you have any intentions for this year.
Much love, Heather.
I know it's been a while since you have heard from me. Much has been going on. How are you? How your dance, called life, on this planet we call earth? I trust your heart, health, mind and spirit are well. I'd love to hear from you.
I thought I'd give you a brief outline of my 2009, since it's been over 6 months since you've heard from me. But I'll start at the beginning. The highlights of 2009 were:
-I started out the year very abundant.
-I got stitches in my finger from a deep cut from a mirror. First stitches since childhood, but only the first of 2 sets of stitches for the year.
-I fell in love, I mean, head over heals in love, wildly and passionately. More about that later.
-I taught Aerial Contact in my home for 6 months- which is teaching people how to lift people into the air while dancing.
-I took my first Contact Improv Classes. I figured I'm teaching my version of Contact, I might as well see what Contact Improv is...it was nice to take some workshops and classes and learn how others teach this work.
-I was gifted a surgery that I had postponed doing for 11 years-second set of stitches.
-10 weeks after surgery I performed a dance peice I created to a paying audience.
-I started regularly doing Scar Tissue and Lymphatic Massage on clients and being able to teach them this work to support their health.
-Hit the big 40!
-One of the things I'm very excited about is that I taught my first Ecstatic Dance class and it was a great success with many people asking for the next one!
-I started back with my meditation practice and studying Buddhism, which is making me very happy, balanced and feeling so much more well rounded internally.
I have made some powerful intentions this year and I'm very excited about them. Just to share a few:
One is to support myself through my art of dance, sewing, performing, creativity and facilitating classes.
Opening to be with my life partner.
Heal and empower myself more in all areas of my life. I love that work Empower.
Spend more time in nature
Possibly start my journey to South America.
This past year has been a good one, full of newness, love, passion, big AH HA'S and scariness of decisions. But it was a great year for growth and perspective.
Falling in love was the most amazing thing of this year. Funny how you sometimes your don't know you are in love until after it's over. As beautiful, passionate, fun and alive as it was, sometimes self caring is the more important thing. The biggest lesson was that sometimes to get what you want (the end goal), you have to choose the opposite of that in the moment to get it in the future.
Mine was realizing this man had just gotten out of a 10 year relationship, 1 week before we met (I didn't know that for 2-3 months, I thought it had been 3 months-wordage is a funny thing), and 4 months into being with him, he had taken me to his town, introducing me to everyone he knew. I realized he needed to be a free man and I needed to care for myself by getting out of it, as I wasn't getting what I needed. So good to know what you need, ask for it and then honor it. It doesn't always look like it's what you want but it truly is...to love the self.
And then in August I gave birth to a fibroid the size of a 4 month old fetus. Ok ok, not a birth, but a surgery, a surgery that is the same as giving birth surgically, meaning it wasn't a natural birth.
Back 11 years ago, a doctor told me I had fibroids in my uterus and immediately wanted to take me into surgery. I was not having any of that. I realized I didn't believe in surgery. I got in touch with why the fibroids were there. I did a number of things, that honestly looking back at it is the most funny thing and would make a great one woman show if I shared with you all the craziness that I did to rid them of my body, any where from having my lover pouring olive oil up me, to taking disgusting tasting herbs, rubbing all kinds of things on my body, taking hormones that at first caused me extreme bliss, to suicidal thoughts. Yikes!
The pain got worse, I wasn't able to dance as well. I felt as if I had HUGE testicles on the inside of my belly bouncing around. Very unsexy.
It was pretty profound how it all happened. I thought about surgery, told a friend about is, she saw this info where I could get the exact surgery I needed and Voila! Within 4-5 weeks I was in surgery. It was scariest and hardest thing I ever had to decide in my life. But I had such amazing support and so much love around me. All that, on top of being at one of the top hospitals, with one of the best doctors, all for free-that doesn't happen often in the US. So I felt very taken care of and healing was great. I have the whole thing documented on video, my friend will be publishing it for scar tissue massage, which I am now doing.
I am actually considering putting together an organization now to support women through surgeries. No woman or man for that matter should go alone. I am so grateful I had people all around me, laying in bed with me all day the first day out. So healing. I learned so much through this and would love to give my wisdom on this subject to others.
Anyway, 10 weeks after surgery I performed to my first paying audience. Which was a blast. I got to put together my own work, I designed, dyed and sewed my own outfit for it. Everyone involved were amazing dancers.
OH, on top of that I turned 40 this year, yes, that is right, I'm 40! The best shape in my life, very strong, fit and full of life, energy and dancin' my bootie off. I've been wanting to be 40 since I was 16 years old, so I'm happy for this. I know this decade is going to be amazing.
In December I put on, as my birthday gift for me, and ecstatic dance class. It was amazing, so much fun. I got some great feedback and reviews. I am planning on my next class, I want to do something more regular. There is something amazing about giving people a space to dance to great music. What magic happens!
In December I went back to Meditation classes and sits, it's been amazing. I am loving it.
I have tons already in the fires starting for next month. I'll share those later.
I look forward to hearing from you. I'd love to catch up.
I'd love to hear your high lights from last year and if you have any intentions for this year.
Much love, Heather.
My Clothes Designs!
I have been a busy little bee sewing recently and LOVING it! So I thought I'd share some of my creations with you.
I went to dance in a pair of my pants this last weekend and I had at least 4 people want to buy my pants off of me and one even wants me to make a pair specifically with material he has. This thrills me!
I get to be creative, have fun and clothes people with nice things!
HAPPY NEW YEAR! May all your dreams come true! Love and Blissings, Heather
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Sukhi-In Heat!
Hey ya,
Just imagine, you come home to your kitty, almost one year old, and she comes up to you rubbing, rubbing, rubbing, and then walking around in a squatted position, with tail up in the air, her little butt just a twitching in the air and howling in such a cat, loving way looking for someone to love on her tremedously.
Yes, this is what I came home to Sunday. First my roommate told me she was all lovey on her when she got home, and then later Sukhi woke up and the love and affection that was showered up on me, with the lovely little howling she does, how lovely. It’s like she’s so horny she just have to let out a howl, I know that feeling, I have been there, I just don’t go around with my butt up in the air shaking it and howling….that could be a good trick, it might work!!! Or I’d just be put away.
Since I’ve only had male kitties and never remember from so many years ago what they go through and this being a girl kitty, never seen this and didn’t know what to do for her. I knew a friend years ago picked up his kitty, with her begging eyes, pleaded for him to do something to stop this. Here he was, thermometer in hand, ready to stick it in, her ready and willing and he just said “I can’t, it’s incestuous, you are my daughter” and put her down. She was so disappointed. I get that urge. I got on the web and one person gave the advice of:
Equipment: -Cat in Heat
-Q-Tip
-Grab wailing, squirming cat and place it on your lap with its hind quarters readily accessible. Chances are the cat will freely offer them, if not the first time this procedure is followed, then certainly each time afterward.
-Insert the Q-tip into the cat's vagina. It will be exposed and puffy. Do not insert the Q-tip into the other orifice. Either way the cat will begin to scream, but there is a subtle and audible difference in the scream of satisfaction and the scream of rectal pain. Experiment a little until you can distinguish the two. (she was basically telling everyone to stick the Q-tip in both orifices to see how she screams differently, is this crazy or what? No thank you)
-Move the Q-tip in and out of the cat's vagina slowly at first, then more rapidly. No need to be gentle, no matter what you do with the Q-tip it beats a barbed cat penis digging around in there. (I’m sorry but cats are meant for that barbed penis, not a rough, cotton Q-tip that is being jammed into her who knows how deep and hard, YIKES-are you laughing, crying or mad yet, it’s not done yet).
-You are finished when the cat is finished. You will know when the cat is finished because it will either begin immediately to have a cat orgasm, or it will run away with the Q-tip sticking out of its ass. If this happens let it enjoy itself for a few minutes before attempting to retrieve your Q-tip.
-That is it, you are done. Enjoy the peace and quiet until the cat flares up again.
What to look for: The cat orgasm that follows this procedure is something the likes of which I have never seen elsewhere. It is a wriggling, leaping, moaning dance of ecstasy that defies any experience of pleasure my mind can even begin to grasp (I love that). If humans had orgasms with the intensity of a cat serviced in this way there would be no such thing as war, hunger, capitalism or God. (yes yes yes, let this be a lesson for humans, orgasms, not war!!!)
Background: A cat in heat is, with few exceptions, one of the most irritating things to have living in your home. A cat in heat will follow you around and howl at you in a bone chilling, hideous wail until you are ready just to toss it outside and let it get pounded by the local tom's. After a few days of this torture having to drown a few kittens sounds relaxing. This cat-saving technique was first demonstrated to me by a terminally un-squeemish roomate of years past.
To continue now:
This is funny, as I read another one that said how does she get her cat out of the pain she is in…do people not know what a horny cat looks like, feels like, sounds like? I’ve never had one, but Sukhi in heat, isn’t like she’s in pain, she’s just overly stimulated and wanting to be done in the most desperate of ways!!! Oh yes!
So I finally called the vet and there is nothing for me to do but to love on her and get her fixed or pregnant. Since I’m not ready to be a grandmother, I think the fixed thing might have to happen, well after a week or so of her loving on me. Of course, when I did start to rub her back right at her tail she just started going crazy, then I started massaging the side of her butt/thighs and she basically came all over me. Wow. Kitty juice!!! Luckily that doesn’t bother me, I loved it and felt honored, though I know she doesn’t care who she gets it on as long as she gets some rubbing, loving and satisfaction.
I do look at my surgical gloves and wonder if I could help in some way, but think “my fingers are probably much too large, but then massaging might help. Yeash!
The doctor said only her being inpregnated will stop her from being in heat. Ok then…who knows. I think I’ll let nature do it’s thing. The great thing is she hasn’t tried to get out, hope that stays that way….she hasn’t realized the tomcats outside are sniffing, laying out on the side walk waiting for her. She notices them but doesn’t seem all the excited by them….strange, but good for me. I just need her to stay inside, away from them.
Much more going on but I thought I’d send one piece of info per email,
Take care, hope you got a kick out of this, she is just adorable, when I get video uploaded I’ll attach it.
Much love to you, Heather
Just imagine, you come home to your kitty, almost one year old, and she comes up to you rubbing, rubbing, rubbing, and then walking around in a squatted position, with tail up in the air, her little butt just a twitching in the air and howling in such a cat, loving way looking for someone to love on her tremedously.
Yes, this is what I came home to Sunday. First my roommate told me she was all lovey on her when she got home, and then later Sukhi woke up and the love and affection that was showered up on me, with the lovely little howling she does, how lovely. It’s like she’s so horny she just have to let out a howl, I know that feeling, I have been there, I just don’t go around with my butt up in the air shaking it and howling….that could be a good trick, it might work!!! Or I’d just be put away.
Since I’ve only had male kitties and never remember from so many years ago what they go through and this being a girl kitty, never seen this and didn’t know what to do for her. I knew a friend years ago picked up his kitty, with her begging eyes, pleaded for him to do something to stop this. Here he was, thermometer in hand, ready to stick it in, her ready and willing and he just said “I can’t, it’s incestuous, you are my daughter” and put her down. She was so disappointed. I get that urge. I got on the web and one person gave the advice of:
Equipment: -Cat in Heat
-Q-Tip
-Grab wailing, squirming cat and place it on your lap with its hind quarters readily accessible. Chances are the cat will freely offer them, if not the first time this procedure is followed, then certainly each time afterward.
-Insert the Q-tip into the cat's vagina. It will be exposed and puffy. Do not insert the Q-tip into the other orifice. Either way the cat will begin to scream, but there is a subtle and audible difference in the scream of satisfaction and the scream of rectal pain. Experiment a little until you can distinguish the two. (she was basically telling everyone to stick the Q-tip in both orifices to see how she screams differently, is this crazy or what? No thank you)
-Move the Q-tip in and out of the cat's vagina slowly at first, then more rapidly. No need to be gentle, no matter what you do with the Q-tip it beats a barbed cat penis digging around in there. (I’m sorry but cats are meant for that barbed penis, not a rough, cotton Q-tip that is being jammed into her who knows how deep and hard, YIKES-are you laughing, crying or mad yet, it’s not done yet).
-You are finished when the cat is finished. You will know when the cat is finished because it will either begin immediately to have a cat orgasm, or it will run away with the Q-tip sticking out of its ass. If this happens let it enjoy itself for a few minutes before attempting to retrieve your Q-tip.
-That is it, you are done. Enjoy the peace and quiet until the cat flares up again.
What to look for: The cat orgasm that follows this procedure is something the likes of which I have never seen elsewhere. It is a wriggling, leaping, moaning dance of ecstasy that defies any experience of pleasure my mind can even begin to grasp (I love that). If humans had orgasms with the intensity of a cat serviced in this way there would be no such thing as war, hunger, capitalism or God. (yes yes yes, let this be a lesson for humans, orgasms, not war!!!)
Background: A cat in heat is, with few exceptions, one of the most irritating things to have living in your home. A cat in heat will follow you around and howl at you in a bone chilling, hideous wail until you are ready just to toss it outside and let it get pounded by the local tom's. After a few days of this torture having to drown a few kittens sounds relaxing. This cat-saving technique was first demonstrated to me by a terminally un-squeemish roomate of years past.
To continue now:
This is funny, as I read another one that said how does she get her cat out of the pain she is in…do people not know what a horny cat looks like, feels like, sounds like? I’ve never had one, but Sukhi in heat, isn’t like she’s in pain, she’s just overly stimulated and wanting to be done in the most desperate of ways!!! Oh yes!
So I finally called the vet and there is nothing for me to do but to love on her and get her fixed or pregnant. Since I’m not ready to be a grandmother, I think the fixed thing might have to happen, well after a week or so of her loving on me. Of course, when I did start to rub her back right at her tail she just started going crazy, then I started massaging the side of her butt/thighs and she basically came all over me. Wow. Kitty juice!!! Luckily that doesn’t bother me, I loved it and felt honored, though I know she doesn’t care who she gets it on as long as she gets some rubbing, loving and satisfaction.
I do look at my surgical gloves and wonder if I could help in some way, but think “my fingers are probably much too large, but then massaging might help. Yeash!
The doctor said only her being inpregnated will stop her from being in heat. Ok then…who knows. I think I’ll let nature do it’s thing. The great thing is she hasn’t tried to get out, hope that stays that way….she hasn’t realized the tomcats outside are sniffing, laying out on the side walk waiting for her. She notices them but doesn’t seem all the excited by them….strange, but good for me. I just need her to stay inside, away from them.
Much more going on but I thought I’d send one piece of info per email,
Take care, hope you got a kick out of this, she is just adorable, when I get video uploaded I’ll attach it.
Much love to you, Heather
Thursday, June 4, 2009
Me Dancing Aerial Contact
This is the dance Aerial Contact, as my friend, Rob and I call it. He introduced me to this dance 3+ years ago and he and I have redefined and expanded it over the years, to the point that I teach this now.
I'm excited to share it with you. Enjoy!
Bliss and love to you, Heather
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
Soulmate, Lessons, Dance, Life....
Hello there,
How are you? I know, long time no hear. So much has been up, happening and I haven't taken the time to share. I truly think of so many so much but I just don't take the time write all the time individually, but I'd love to hear from you.
For me, I met my soulmate February 8th, this year, or should I say, A soulmate, as I don't feel there is only one for each person. It was amazing, breathing, exhilerating. We met each other in so many areas, first, on the dance floor-never have I been met so well on the dance floor by a man in my life. It was as if I was dancing with myself, slow, fast, contact, I lifted him up immediately and he went with it in such trust, I did not know he teaches Contact Improv since we'd never talked. In my first glance at him he inspired me to dance even more. When we connected it was as if I saw his soul, we lit up, we exploded off each other and then met up later.
Off the dance floor we met each other in such incredible, amazing ways that I'd never been met-in communication, sharing, truth,speaking all upfront and with love, compassion, making love like neither of had ever experienced and believing in so many of the same things, supporting each other through so much. I'd never been in something so connected, so easy when we were together. We just lit each other up, inspired and grew from know each other. I saw his soul, not so much his physicalness but his soul shined through. I get you don't choose your soulmates, they just come, and you can choose to embrace them or not.
So now, 4 months later, I found myself last week in a quandary and breaking up with him. As much as it was so powerful with him, he lives in Northern California and when apart, it was not so easy. When I realized I wasn't being met when we were apart, and being met could be energetically, phone, skype, notes, emails...but connectedness, showing up and meeting in the space of heart and soul. I realized it was time to end it, as hard as it was.
My first thought the morning after was "what did I do....so taking care of myself and doing what is best for me isn't always aligned with what I want". I sat with that, really allowed it to move through me and it take very long before I got..."but it is what I want...the big picture is I want my life partner, as so taking care of myself doesn't always look like what I want in the moment, but it is what I want for the long term". As he wasn't ready for a commitment. I am. It was a difference of where we are at and nothing more than that.
And the lessons that have come from that since have been mind blowing...it's not always what we think. I woke up this morning, 5 days after I broke it off, and really feeling all the good stuff he and I had and went through together, breathing that all in and realized, there was only happiness, joy, bliss and excitement. As those experiences are mine, they are part of me and if I can remember them within me I have them and can bring them into my next relationship and manifest anything I want. As, if I can manifest someone so close to what I want, I can manifest someone better.
No one can take these experiences away from me....I realized there wasn't one ounce of sadness, as I would have had in the past, I didn't feel a lack in the loss of not having it any more. I felt love, and gratitude and excitement for the lessons, for all those experiences and all the openings and love that I got to share, the gratitude is beyond anything I've ever imagined before. I felt it, I had it still living within me, it's still mine, it's a part of me and why not let that grow huge in me so I can go to my next step in the next relationship.
How profound is all of this, to love, to allow the loss, cry when the tears come up, let everything flow through and see the joyful happy times, with no attachment to the past, but an opening to the future and celebrate, really celebrate. That's probably the most exciting thing I've ever felt. And that is the real gift of all of this...celebrating life, what we learn no matter how easy or hard it is. I got feel I was given so much in these 4 months with him, I love seeing and feeling those gifts and embracing them all.
Yesterday was the first morning I woke up without him being on my mind and this morning I woke up thrilled about life. I feel so empowered, so relieved by my choice to choose me, my future of keeping my intention to being with my soulmate/life partner this year. I feel this and have felt it for a very long time now. So I'll take joy over pain any day. I embraced the pain fully, I reached out for support and now I feel so clear it is perfect. I love the lessons of life, even these painful ones as it stretches me.
These past few months have been pretty incredible anyway. I've taken to studying Contact Improv, going to do some workshops this summer in this work. I've been dancing 2-7 hours a day 3-5 days a week and this is very exciting to me. I have all kinds of plans for dance in my future and this really thrills me. Though just living in the moment is pretty profound too. I'll be putting up some videos soon of some of the dance I've been up too.
I went to Sedona, in Arizona to video my teachers at the Daka/Dakini Conference (sacred sexual healers). That was so much fun...learning to direct the cameras, being behind the scene as well as using my artistic eye to capture some incredible scenes at the conference. Meeting some amazing people, seeing my teachers and being with good friends.
There is so much more I can share but I'll stop there. Life is good and getting better. I love you all so very much. I miss hearing from you and wish you all your dreams coming true. Hugs and love, Heather
Ps. I'll be sending out some links to some videos I was in soon as well, just for fun.
PPS. Sukhi, my kitten, had her first bout of fleas and going to the vet, she's recovered from it all thankfully now, but man she was a little crazed there for a bit the poor thing. XXOO
How are you? I know, long time no hear. So much has been up, happening and I haven't taken the time to share. I truly think of so many so much but I just don't take the time write all the time individually, but I'd love to hear from you.
For me, I met my soulmate February 8th, this year, or should I say, A soulmate, as I don't feel there is only one for each person. It was amazing, breathing, exhilerating. We met each other in so many areas, first, on the dance floor-never have I been met so well on the dance floor by a man in my life. It was as if I was dancing with myself, slow, fast, contact, I lifted him up immediately and he went with it in such trust, I did not know he teaches Contact Improv since we'd never talked. In my first glance at him he inspired me to dance even more. When we connected it was as if I saw his soul, we lit up, we exploded off each other and then met up later.
Off the dance floor we met each other in such incredible, amazing ways that I'd never been met-in communication, sharing, truth,speaking all upfront and with love, compassion, making love like neither of had ever experienced and believing in so many of the same things, supporting each other through so much. I'd never been in something so connected, so easy when we were together. We just lit each other up, inspired and grew from know each other. I saw his soul, not so much his physicalness but his soul shined through. I get you don't choose your soulmates, they just come, and you can choose to embrace them or not.
So now, 4 months later, I found myself last week in a quandary and breaking up with him. As much as it was so powerful with him, he lives in Northern California and when apart, it was not so easy. When I realized I wasn't being met when we were apart, and being met could be energetically, phone, skype, notes, emails...but connectedness, showing up and meeting in the space of heart and soul. I realized it was time to end it, as hard as it was.
My first thought the morning after was "what did I do....so taking care of myself and doing what is best for me isn't always aligned with what I want". I sat with that, really allowed it to move through me and it take very long before I got..."but it is what I want...the big picture is I want my life partner, as so taking care of myself doesn't always look like what I want in the moment, but it is what I want for the long term". As he wasn't ready for a commitment. I am. It was a difference of where we are at and nothing more than that.
And the lessons that have come from that since have been mind blowing...it's not always what we think. I woke up this morning, 5 days after I broke it off, and really feeling all the good stuff he and I had and went through together, breathing that all in and realized, there was only happiness, joy, bliss and excitement. As those experiences are mine, they are part of me and if I can remember them within me I have them and can bring them into my next relationship and manifest anything I want. As, if I can manifest someone so close to what I want, I can manifest someone better.
No one can take these experiences away from me....I realized there wasn't one ounce of sadness, as I would have had in the past, I didn't feel a lack in the loss of not having it any more. I felt love, and gratitude and excitement for the lessons, for all those experiences and all the openings and love that I got to share, the gratitude is beyond anything I've ever imagined before. I felt it, I had it still living within me, it's still mine, it's a part of me and why not let that grow huge in me so I can go to my next step in the next relationship.
How profound is all of this, to love, to allow the loss, cry when the tears come up, let everything flow through and see the joyful happy times, with no attachment to the past, but an opening to the future and celebrate, really celebrate. That's probably the most exciting thing I've ever felt. And that is the real gift of all of this...celebrating life, what we learn no matter how easy or hard it is. I got feel I was given so much in these 4 months with him, I love seeing and feeling those gifts and embracing them all.
Yesterday was the first morning I woke up without him being on my mind and this morning I woke up thrilled about life. I feel so empowered, so relieved by my choice to choose me, my future of keeping my intention to being with my soulmate/life partner this year. I feel this and have felt it for a very long time now. So I'll take joy over pain any day. I embraced the pain fully, I reached out for support and now I feel so clear it is perfect. I love the lessons of life, even these painful ones as it stretches me.
These past few months have been pretty incredible anyway. I've taken to studying Contact Improv, going to do some workshops this summer in this work. I've been dancing 2-7 hours a day 3-5 days a week and this is very exciting to me. I have all kinds of plans for dance in my future and this really thrills me. Though just living in the moment is pretty profound too. I'll be putting up some videos soon of some of the dance I've been up too.
I went to Sedona, in Arizona to video my teachers at the Daka/Dakini Conference (sacred sexual healers). That was so much fun...learning to direct the cameras, being behind the scene as well as using my artistic eye to capture some incredible scenes at the conference. Meeting some amazing people, seeing my teachers and being with good friends.
There is so much more I can share but I'll stop there. Life is good and getting better. I love you all so very much. I miss hearing from you and wish you all your dreams coming true. Hugs and love, Heather
Ps. I'll be sending out some links to some videos I was in soon as well, just for fun.
PPS. Sukhi, my kitten, had her first bout of fleas and going to the vet, she's recovered from it all thankfully now, but man she was a little crazed there for a bit the poor thing. XXOO
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