I Cannot Make You Safe, August 7th, 08

I cannot make you safe
You have to find that within you
I can tell you everything I know
Everything I said
Everything I felt
But you……You and only you can make you safe
You have to trust
Finding that path of trusting you, your choices
That is all of our paths
I cannot give that to you
So what ever you need to know
What ever you need to do
I can hold your hand
I can lend you my ear
But my love, you have to go alone and find your truth
Trust and feeling safe comes from within
I know, I have looked outside too
I have asked your questions
I have feared the answers not being true
I have feared the answers, period
We are in need of the truth, but the truth is within
It starts with us, our inner higher being
Our heart tells us

So I won’t change for you
I’ve done that, it does not work
I will be me
I’ll do this not only for me but for you
As for me being me, will help you grow and if I can do that, it’s what I wish
So I will not change so you will feel safe, please don’t ask, though you have, I will not
And please, you don’t change so I can feel safe
As I too need to feel safe within me and that is embracing you being you
Our growth will be much stronger & more powerful in just accepting & embracing each other
Not fearing each other, by asking each other to change
So I will not change and will not ask you to change

If you have a question, ask, I am here
I have nothing to hide
My hiding is over

Do I still feel fear, oh yes, but I feel it, face it and go through it
I pray I stay uncaged and lift the curtain to show all my flaws, my fear, my vulnerability
All those soft, tender areas that are painful to touch and are sensitive to even look at
Those little pink parts in me that scream to be healed, to receive love
And I pray that you will not fear my sensitivities or pull away, but embrace them
As I am you, you are me, and together we are one
Please, don’t run from my imperfections, my vulnerability….as mine are yours too
And yours are within me
We are all each others teachers, healers, students
Please don’t run, we are learning, if you allow it, we are growing, together
I am not perfect,
We are not perfect
But the need to be with each other, within community
This is where we grow, expand, heal and see each other in the bigger sense of the word
Please take my hand, let’s walk together as one
Let’s heal together, support each other
When the ground gets loose with soil and you start to fall, I’ll extend my hand and help you back up
I am not perfect, I pray you can forgive and have compassion for my imperfections, embrace them and see that I too have tripped and fallen
I too have lessons to learn and need a hand from time to time

So…..I will not change for you
I will grow
I will honor you
I will listen and share what ever I can to support you
But….. do you want a teacher or just someone to hear you?
Someone to show you the way or someone to just support you and not show you the truth?
If you allow me, I can be your teacher as you are mine
Will you allow me in?

I cannot make you safe
Safety comes from within
Safety is within

I cannot make you safe
-Heather Rhea Dawn-

A Poem for You- Dance with God!

For you my love, thanks for being an inspiration to me. For as I dance with you I find, see, feel and smell God, through you-

Dance with God!

When I dance with you
My heart sings
Yes it sings
To the heavens above
It sings the most beautiful music
High, clear, crisp notes
The notes float as I dip and soar
Within your arms
Your hands that hold me so securely, so safely
It is there that I fly
It is there with you
On the dance floor
In your loving embrace, that is where I melt, float & explode open
To meet God, the God in You
Within your eyes, I see God
Within your soul I feel God
Within your touch
I know, I know who I am, who you are, who God is
We become one, you and I
And together we are Oneness, Flow, Universal Love, Passion
We Glow
We Are God
In our dance, We Are God
Let’s continue our song, our flight, our explosion of life
On the ecstatic floor of life
Let’s flood the earth with our love, our light
And dance our Hearts desire
You and I and God, as One
We Dance
Dance as God
-Heather Rhea Dawn-

Dance is My Heart!

I Dance

I dance because it's who I am

I dance as it shows my soul

It bares my soul.......to me, to others, to you

I share my dance as it gets me closer to You, to God, to Me

My dance is who I am, it's what I breathe, I eat, I feel, I see, I cry, I laugh and I play

Without it.....I am nothing

It's who I am

It saves me from my mind-the chatter

It saves me from going crazy

I meet you there...yes I meet YOU there, as it's where I meet ME there and it's the only place I can meet anyone truly.

Well, there and in the breath, but where is dance if there is no breath and where is there breath with no dance?

They go hand and hand

I dance you in, I breathe you in, and as I do I breathe me in, I breathe me in fully

As it is my flow

It's my heart

Dance is my breath

Yes, my breath

Without it I die

Yes without it I Die

Do you feel that? Hear that? I die without it.

I've died before, it's painful, it's lonely, there is anguish

The heart beat continues but I am not there, I am dead, I did not dance

But now I do, so I breathe, I live, I feel and I DANCE

It's my life....what is your dance, what is your life?

My life is dance, my dance is breath, my breath is life and that....is my HEART!

It's where I meet You..... Me..... & God

DANCE is my Heart, Dance IS my Heart, Dance is my HEART!

Dance is who I am.

Dance!

-Heather Rhea Dawn-

When will you follow your Heart?

When will we wake up?

When will we wake up and only do what our heart wants us to?

When will we take the chance and follow our heart?

Our Heart, it is the one true thing that wants to be listened to

What is it saying?

What is your Heart saying?

What is Our Heart saying?

The One Heart

The Heart beat of life

When will we follow our Heart?

Today? Tomorrow? When?

When will you follow your Heart?

And when will I?

The Heart Knows!

-Heather Rhea Dawn-

Compassion

Compassion: Universal Panacea

Only compassion is therapeutic, because all that is ill in man is because of lack of love. All that is wrong with man is somewhere associated with love. He has not been able to love, or he has not been able to receive love. He has not been able to share his being. That’s the misery. That creates all sorts of complexes inside.

Those wounds inside can surface in many ways: they can become physical illness, they can become mental illness — but deep down man suffers from lack of love. Just as food is needed for the body, love is needed for the soul. The body cannot survive without food, and the soul cannot survive without love. In fact, without love the soul is never born — there is no question of its survival.

That’s why I say compassion is therapeutic. What is compassion? Compassion is the purest form of love. Sex is the lowest form of love, compassion the highest form of love. In sex the contact is basically physical; in compassion the contact is basically spiritual. In love, compassion and sex are both mixed, the physical and the spiritual are both mixed. Love is midway between sex and compassion.

You can call compassion prayer also. You can call compassion meditation also. The highest form of energy is compassion. The word compassion is beautiful: half of it is passion — somehow passion has become so refined that it is no more like passion. It has become compassion.

In compassion, you simply give. In love, you are thankful because the other has given something to you. In compassion, you are thankful because the other has taken something from you; you are thankful because the other has not rejected you. You had come with energy to give, you had come with many flowers to share, and the other allowed you, the other was receptive. You are thankful because the other was receptive.

Compassion is the highest form of love.

The greatest anguish in life is when you cannot express, when you cannot communicate, when you cannot share. The poorest man is he who has nothing to share, or who has something to share but has lost the capacity, the art, of how to share it; then a man is poor.

The sexual man is very poor. The loving man is richer comparatively. The man of compassion is the richest — he is at the top of the world. He has no confinement, no limitation. He simply gives and goes on his way. He does not even wait for you to say a thank-you. With tremendous love he shares his energy.

This is what I call therapeutic.

Unless compassion has happened to you, don’t think that you have lived rightly or that you have lived at all.

Compassion is the flowering. And when compassion happens to one person, millions are healed. Whosoever comes around him is healed. Compassion is therapeutic.

Osho

Photos, Mexico!

This is the lovely Lab, Macho, I met on the beach with his owner. The purple outfit is the one that was loaned to me for Bling Bling night-as it had little sparkly things on it. The third one is of two men walking up the beach playing music, probably on their way to work or maybe it was their work. This is the pharmacy that sells Viagra, right there, on the sign and a list of a number of things can get drugged up on! And then there are the swing bars, the customers just sit on these swings as they drink themselves silly or just enjoy the view! They had these in town and the resort on the "dark side".
Enjoy! Love, Heather

Playgirl, Beach, Peaceful Within, Inspired

Hello there,

Photos: they are from places I went snorkeling, I went up in that big sail and jumped out into the ocean. In one place you can see the fish from before you dive in to go snorkeling, the one photos is from the octipus they got out there and inked everyone, fun fun, and then there is the ocean, the gorgeous ocean that speaks so beautifully!

How are you? How is life? I am good, I’m back in LA again and readjusting.

Just imagine, waking up from a great night sleep of 8 hours, it’s 6:30am. You stretch, from the tips of your fingers to the absolute ends of your toes. The soft cotton sheet surrounding you, in the perfect temperature of the room. Your first thought is, “life is amazing”…opening your eyes only to confirm that, with the white soft curtains surrounding the bed draping down and bound in each corner. You get up slowly, walk to the curtains that hold the sunlight out and pull them back. The warmth of the day that was held back even at 6:30am nudges in, you smell the warmth and it softens your sinus cavities and your shoulders relax even more. Pulling open the other drapes of the oval shaped window area that opens to the bathtub on the otherside that looks out over the ocean. Stepping to 3 feet to the window, opening the window and the screen, to unblock anything from really seeing the shocking view of the light blue to dark blue ocean, the gorgeous sky with a few white puffy clouds, the sun hasn’t quite made it up yet but it’s on it’s way, almost there…..looking down the clear blue swimming pool with it’s alley of water that goes to each ground floor room below, as I stand the 3rd floor looking at the whiteness of the resort glow from the sun coming up and showing it’s light onto it, awakening it to the day.

Seeing one or two couples starting to stir down there, reading in a chair, or the hanging lounge beds made for two. Smelling the soft ocean breaze, “Life is good”, yes it is, “all the time” as I hear Michael Beckwith in my head and the congregation. Sitting, breathing it all in through my nose, skin, eyes, mouth and even more peace flows over me, feeling ever so lucky to be here now. How fortunate. Just taking it all in, a clear mind, a passionate draw to be there now.

Taking up a book and reading on what ever your choice of the day it-health, Tantra, India, Love, etc. Then grabbing your durable sandals, short shorts, no shirt needed, your key, hat and sunglasses and off you are to your morning walk. You walk out of your room, “can I be nude here……? Yes, oh yes, I can”, such freedom, the sun shining on your skin and it warms to it with a little wetness coming to the surface, it illuminates, shines and shimmers in the light as you walk toward the beach. You skin that is already bronzed with the sun, used to the light of it all, the ocean breeze touching your breast and having you feel so alive, so awake and thrilled.

Walking over the coral beach and large sand pebbles, up over to the hard coral that is exposed, taking in that you are walking over shells that used to have living critters in them, some still do. Hermit crabs that jump back inside when you kneel down to them or the snails that are sucked up to a rock or another shell or smooth surface of some kind. Picking up a few gorgeous pieces of coral on your way, watching the waves come and splash upon the coral, high into the sky at times, the blue turning white in the sky and falling into the blue foamy ocean all over again.

The ocean taking taking away any worry you may have, cleaning your mind and allowing you to just be present with it. As if it was talking with you silently, collaborating with your soul and your desire to be here now, present. Your mind wants to kick in but then it lets go. Finding an amazing place to take in the view of the ocean, watching the sun come up, just taking in mother nature at her finest.

Walking back seeing the ocean in a completely more colorful view as you are looking in the direction of the sun this time around, seeing what the sun sees and you notice that the sun always sees the most colorful view of things as it shines light on everything. Wouldn’t that be nice to shine light on everything and everyone we look upon. Such beauty.

Going back, sitting down to a breakfast of fruit, granola, and yogurt looking out over the pool, the waiter bringing green tea and pineapple juice without even asking as they already know it’s what you love.

After breakfast, I’d teach 2 hours, then take some alone time or hang out with some of the guests and talk about their relationship or life it’s self. Then by that time it was lunch time and eating at the buffet of any kind of meat or fish on the grill, guacamole, homemade salsa, chips, salads, sushi on some days, and then some.

At two there was water volleyball-my favorite activity of the day. Wow that was a blast, it is such a group bonding thing. In the evening having dinner of salmon or lobster fettuccini, or a number of other things, with an avocado and crab salad and possibly some amazing soup.

At night there would be sometimes band that would play at dinner or after dinner in the “disco” an outside area that is covered, comfy couches, a Jacuzzi, fabric hanging from the ceiling blowing in the wind. Or there would be some Flamenco performance or Mexican performers, dancers, gymnasts, dance lessons or the perfect couple contest, all kinds of things offered.

So those were my days, they were gorgeous! The last Saturday I was there Playgirl sent a couple to interview me for their magazine. This couple was amazing, so full of love and life and so much fun. We talked for hours just really enjoying each others company. They came to my morning Body Awareness through Movement class. We had lunch together, then at 4pm I gave them a private session that was so heart-warming to witness and feel. Afterward they allowed me to take photos of them for my website and she realized she still hadn’t interviewed me so we met for dinner and had dinner and did the interview, it went great. Very simple and fun. We’ll be keeping in touch, having so much in common with food, receipts, etc. So look out for the Jan/February issue of Playgirl, I’ll be in there! Funny, they are putting me right next to an article on Guatemala-which is what I’m writing about.

All the couples I met this past month blew me away, opened my heart, inspired me to know love is so huge and so amazing. Working with couples that were married from anywhere from 15-39 years, still very much in love, and how they gave me so much hope to know there are couples out there that can still love after so many years together and know that some of them didn’t find their life partners until they were 40 years old. Also to know how much I helped them grow closer, that was pretty amazing, but they taught me a lot in just their beingness with each other. One couple in particular that I just loved said “friendship first then the relationship”, I could feel that, really feel it. There were the ones the most grounded, in love and felt the most healthy of all couples there. The inspired me the most, just the way they really liked each other, treated each other, interacted together and respected and accepted each other. Such touching beauty.

I have already been asked back by several guests and by the manager of the resort. Some guests are going to arrange their next trip to when I’ll be there. All that will need to be worked out. But it feels good to be asked to come back and wanted back there.

I’ll see where the journey leads me. I know this, as much as it was amazing and beautiful there, I missed home. Since I’ve traveled so much this past year and a half I am loving being home. Next time I hope to take someone with me. It would be great to have a friend to hang with on the off times and to share it with.

Last night I went to a dance performance, if you have never seen a performance of nude dancers doing contact dance, being lifted into the air you must see it. It pushed some peoples buttons to see that much of people, but I felt it was lovely, courageous and healing. On Monday night they are having a class for nude performing if I am back from an appointment I may go. It sounds incredible! If anyone in the Santa Monica area wants to go to the performance it’s still playing tonight and next weekend at Highways!
Much love to you all, many hugs, Heather